In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:12-13 ESV)
There is a secret to navigating through this life minus emotional drama. It is called knowing where our strength and satisfaction truly lie. I tend not to face hard times well. I rail, I complain, I question what God is up to. I compare myself to people who seem to be doing well even though they don’t care about God or seek His agenda.
My unhappiness takes me in a myriad of directions that thoroughly exhaust me and leaves me without answers and satisfaction. I do the dance between extremes in my life until I am brought to the end of myself, which is exactly where I need to be to get to the right place. Eventually I crawl back to the center of God’s heart. It is quiet there. And in the peace I find His reassurance that He will never leave me or forsake me. He will not disappoint me. He will cover me and fulfill my longings.
He gives me grace for the day, and I find I have not perished after all. I am standing strong in Him. I can do this-but only with His help. My ego suffers the blow that I am not enough to sustain myself, and when I finally welcome the news I feel such a relief, such sweet peace it defies my understanding.
Dear heavenly Father, forgive me for trying to go on without You again. Now I am back. With You all things are possible. Remind me that it is best to wait on You and lean on Your strength. Help me remember that wisdom when I’m considering fighting my own battles or blaming You for my wounds. Grant me Your strength as I lay down my weapons and take refuge in You. In Jesus’ name. Amen